It’s been an interesting week on my new ‘less self indulgence’ lifestyle plan.
I’ve been keeping a written journal of what I eat, what I drink – and what I spend. At the very least, an eye opener. Yikes.
I met with one of the leading experts in obesity in the country last week – he was amazing. If you’ve been following my blog, I’ve been involved with a local “Weight Wise” program, which is geared towards those who are considered obese or morbidly obese. I’ve met with a psychiatrist, a nutritionist, a nurse and now the doctor. The whole premise behind this program is to find out if I am a candidate for lap band surgery. I have to go through a whole series of hoops and jumps before they will even consider it. The best part of this whole experience is finally having someone understand that it’s not all ‘eat less, exercise more’. This program is more than that.
He asked some questions that I really never considered a part of being overweight, but afterwards I realized – wow, those questions made complete sense. He asked me if I had been promiscuous at any point in time in my life, and I will admit – I did go through a phase (of which I’m not particularly proud of) in my early 20’s. I realize now that I wanted love – and I had confused sex with love (wouldn’t it be nice if we could figure that shit out WHEN we’re doing it?) He asked me about my relationships with my parents and my sister, friendships…etc. He asked me if I had a tendency to binge eat (which thankfully, I do not) and if I used alcohol as a ‘crutch’ (oh yes), did I overspend beyond my means (sigh, uh – YEAH) and a few other questions. The questions he was asking had very little to do with my size or my weight, they were more geared towards my thought patterns and my personality, which can be defined in one word: ADDICTIVE. I was addicted with trying to find love, I was addicted to instant gratification and I was addicted to alcohol. 2 out of these 3 things were easily obtained by overspending (yet, another addiction).
Now, this is interesting. There was an article in the paper this morning – “Weight loss plan can curb spending” (Postmedia news). There was a line in there that jumped out at me: “While the authors say not everyone who struggles with weight also has money problems, [Demetre] estimates over 50% of the population has issues with both.” Wow. I’d never thought to put the two together per se, but it makes sense.
We live in a society of instant gratification. We want what we want, and we want it NOW. We don’t budget for things like our parents did, we put it on credit. We don’t scrimp and save our pennies, we just buy it and worry about it later. We don’t do without – we all ‘need’ the new TV, the new iPhone, the new tablet, the new…(insert vice in here). When I want to eat something, I want it NOW. I don’t mean binge eating – I just mean regular, day-to-day living. If I want sushi for lunch, I’ll got and get it ($15.00). Then, if I want steak for dinner, I’ll go and get it ($15.00) and maybe a few more groceries that I really don’t need, but want ($25.00). I’ve just spend $55.00 on things I don’t necessarily NEED. Repeat that every day for about 5 days. That’s $275.00 just on FOOD related items that I probably only need about $30.00 of. Let’s add some wine on top of that ($60.00/week) and maybe a shirt or pair of shoes ($100.00) and I’m up to $435.00 For one week.
Great – so now I’m fat AND in debt. But I can see how it goes hand in hand. I eat and overspend to compensate for the things that I don’t have, which in turn creates more problems and gets me farther away from where I DO want to be. It’s a vicious circle and I’m doing everything I can to get off the giant hamster wheel and back on solid ground. Because the things that I want most – to be happy, healthy, a normal body weight – and to buy my own home – are things that only I CAN do myself. It won’t happen right this very minute, but with some time and patience, I think I have a pretty good chance.
Like they say, good things come to those who ‘weight’. 🙂